Thirteenth Month Since Bobby's Homegoing

January 16, 2009

My Dear Sweet Robert,

Thirteen months have now passed. I see your photos all around. Sometimes, If I close my eyes, I can imagine the sound of you coming through the door. But I know that can never happen. I am comforted by the secure knowledge that one day we will be reunited at Heaven's gate.

Until then, I find myself at an crossroad. I'm not yet sure what path to take. I pray for God's wisdom as I make choices. I never want to do anything to disrepect you or our marriage. But, in one of my grief classes, we were reminded that in our marriage vows, the words we recited are, "til death us do part". Sadly, death has parted us. I will miss you daily. That will never change or fade. No matter what my future holds, nothing will ever lessen the deep love we had for each other.

Please Know That You Were Always Loved And Will Never Be Forgotten.

Love,
Kim
Phil 4:13

New Year's Day - January 1, 2009

January 01, 2009

My Dear Sweet Robert,

Here I am, facing another new year, without you. I wonder how I have made it through all these months, without you by my side. I still miss you so incredibly much. I sometimes wonder when this journey of grief, that I find myself on, will end.

My faith, family and friends have made my journey throughout the past year easier. It has been humbling to see how God has provided for me. The times when things seemed hopeless, and I was at my lowest, are when God’s guiding hand seemed most evident.

As this new year begins, I find myself facing many unknowns. Finding a job, in these uncertain economic times, will be challenging. Facing the reality of being alone, is hard to do.

I miss you.
I am lonely.
I miss having someone to do things with.
I wonder if I will be alone for the rest of my life.
I wonder how you would feel if I wasn’t.

No matter what time brings, you can:

Know That You Were Always Loved And Will Never Be Forgotten.

Love,
Kim
Phil 4:13