My dear sweet Robert,
Four months have now passed since we lost you here on this earth and heaven welcomed you to your new glorious home. I try to imagine what you are experiencing, but I doubt I can hardly conceive what your eyes now see so clearly. It must be wonderful to have clarity where you used to have ambiguity. I remember our many talks about what we thought heaven would be like. We wondered which one of us would get there first. There is no wondering now. We know the answer. You won! ...and I lost. As time goes by, and because you meant so very much to me, I realize that I lost so much more than just a husband. I lost my best friend, my lover, my dance partner, my gardner, my mechanic, my computer genius and so much more.
I am slowly facing the reality of it all. But, I don't like it. I miss you so very much. Just to hear your voice or feel your touch one more time, how comforting and good that would be.
There are days, I feel like I am losing the battles I am fighting. There are so many things that need handling and I don't know how to deal with them all. The weight you left on my shoulders is very heavy. Some situations seem impossible. I feel so alone. You always were "the half-full glass" person when it came to looking at challenging issues and figuring out the best plan of action to solve the problem. And you always tried to show me that my "half-empty glass" way of seeing things didn't accomplish very much. How I wish I could have your glass in my hand now, as I try to sort through these important issues.
I pray God will surround and guide me as I walk down these unknown paths that lie ahead for me. Without His guidance, I know I will surely fail. But with Him, I have faith that I will find the strength to do most anything I need to.
Please remember to keep a place ready for me, when its my time. And please also know, that it is with great anticipation, that I wait for that glorious day. Until then...
I will keep your love for me wrapped tightly around my broken heart. And even though my heart is broken and I grieve each day you aren't by my side, I know you are in such a better place.
You Were Always Loved, And Will Never Be Forgotten.
Love,
Kim Ray
Phil 4:13
Four months have now passed since we lost you here on this earth and heaven welcomed you to your new glorious home. I try to imagine what you are experiencing, but I doubt I can hardly conceive what your eyes now see so clearly. It must be wonderful to have clarity where you used to have ambiguity. I remember our many talks about what we thought heaven would be like. We wondered which one of us would get there first. There is no wondering now. We know the answer. You won! ...and I lost. As time goes by, and because you meant so very much to me, I realize that I lost so much more than just a husband. I lost my best friend, my lover, my dance partner, my gardner, my mechanic, my computer genius and so much more.
I am slowly facing the reality of it all. But, I don't like it. I miss you so very much. Just to hear your voice or feel your touch one more time, how comforting and good that would be.
There are days, I feel like I am losing the battles I am fighting. There are so many things that need handling and I don't know how to deal with them all. The weight you left on my shoulders is very heavy. Some situations seem impossible. I feel so alone. You always were "the half-full glass" person when it came to looking at challenging issues and figuring out the best plan of action to solve the problem. And you always tried to show me that my "half-empty glass" way of seeing things didn't accomplish very much. How I wish I could have your glass in my hand now, as I try to sort through these important issues.
I pray God will surround and guide me as I walk down these unknown paths that lie ahead for me. Without His guidance, I know I will surely fail. But with Him, I have faith that I will find the strength to do most anything I need to.
Please remember to keep a place ready for me, when its my time. And please also know, that it is with great anticipation, that I wait for that glorious day. Until then...
I will keep your love for me wrapped tightly around my broken heart. And even though my heart is broken and I grieve each day you aren't by my side, I know you are in such a better place.
You Were Always Loved, And Will Never Be Forgotten.
Love,
Kim Ray
Phil 4:13
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