Fourth of July, 2008, First Fourth of July

July, 4 2008

My Dear Sweet Robert,

Here I am, experiencing yet another holiday without you by my side. And while you may not be able to be physically by my side, you are most assuredly still close within my heart.

Michael brought lots of fireworks to do with Noah. They enjoyed themselves. As I watched my grown son show his young son how to safely hold a sparkler, I couldn't help but be reminded of watching Michael, Blythe and Farrah when they excitedly set off their small version of a fireworks show when they were children. I wondered and how you and Robert Jr. and Sylvia used to spend your Fourth of July's when they were children. I realized that you and I never talked about it. I'll have to ask Sylvia and Robert for their memories of the holiday.

As usual, our neighbors put on quite a big splash of bright fireworks. Even with the loud sounds and beautiful colors all around me, I felt lonely without your arms around me, enjoying the beautiful evening together. Oh, how I wish we could have had many more evenings together. But, it wasn't to be.

As I reflect back on our Fourth of July's together, one stands out above all the rest. You took me to Metropolitan Park for a big country concert. It rained and rained an then it rained some more. We were soaked to the bone. And when Sara Evans sang my favorite song, "I Could Not Ask for More", we danced. What a cherished memory you gave me. We were soaked, wearing yellow Mickey Mouse ponchos holding on to each other and dancing in the wet, muddy grass. You didn't care how silly we must have looked to those around us. All you cared about was giving me a night to remember and showing me your love. And then when the big fireworks went off, we were riding on the boat and the sight was spectacular. You gave me a special night to remember for always.

I wonder with all my heart and mind, how spectacular it is where you are. You are with the Author and Creator, God himself, of every color imaginable. I envision your every day is kind of like our Fourth of July's. - Exciting, full of brilliant colors, and awesome sounds. I can hardly wait to experience it with you.

Please know, my love, that...
You Were Always Loved And Never Will Be Forgotten.

All My Love,
Kim